Yesterday I woke up with Lucy, got dressed in my workout gear, made and cleaned up breakfast, and did a workout video while Lucy played with her toys. Well, there was a fair amount of pausing the video to help with something or interest the child in another toy. Which ended up being fine because ohmygoodness it kicked my butt.
Anyway, back to my list of awesomeness: after working out I showered, got us dressed, and then we went to a new play group that Lucy and I are going to do for the rainy season. Lucy might as well have died and gone to heaven what with all the noisy toys and little bikes to fight other little kids over.
When we got home, it was lunch and nap. And during nap I made veggie nuggets for the recently converted non-veggie eater, set some dough to rise for some homemade focaccia, and cleaned the kitchen, and got all the books that are due together for a walk to the library after nap.
Now, at this point, I am convinced that I am The Awesome. I mean, who could POSSIBLY be more awesome than me right now?
Then the nap was over. And my daughter was replaced my an irritable bear-monkey hybrid creature.
After only 15 minutes with this beast, my high totally deteriorated. At one point I went in the kitchen to take care of a diaper and returned to find Lu standing on the table in the living room, and I found myself yelling, "Lucy! What the hell is wrong with you?!"
That's when the Perfect Wife and Mother Award Committee showed up and took away my shiny new trophy and replaced it with a poopy diaper.
I got too cocky. I forgot that every time I get a handle on How Things Work and SAHM Time Management something poops the bed. It's just the nature of the job. All of a sudden everything is unpredictable and there are brand new challenges to get grips on. Every day is a study in ambiguity and Lucy constantly reminds me how very little I am actually in charge. Most days I'm really good at rolling with the punches, but sometimes? Sometimes it just frustrates the hell out of me and I want to trade this for a predictable job.