Monday, February 9, 2009

Six Months? It can't be.

Dear Lucy,

Some friends from church just had a baby girl, and as I held her I couldn't remember you being even remotely as tiny as she seemed.  In six (very) short months you have changed from this very helpless very needy little rooter into an active and funny little person.

There's not a day that goes by that you don't make me belly laugh.  My new favorite thing is your "fake" cry.  If you don't like that you can't reach your toy, or you can't wait the two seconds for me to warm up your food, you'll squeeze your eyes shut and let out a "aaaaaaaaah" and then you'll open your eyes to look at me and see if I'm reacting.  Then repeat until either you get tired of it or I do.

You just started sitting up last week, which means all kinds of fun new things for you.  Like being able to chase the toys around the bathtub or see your daddy when he first comes in the door with that look of raw adoration on your face.

You've grown out of your infant car seat and out of your 6-9 month clothes.  I love that you're so healthy and growing, but any time you choose we can cut out the nursing in the wee hours of the morning.  I'd be ok with that.

It has been absolutely amazing to watch you develop over the past six months.  I marveled when you smiled at me for the first time.  I got goose bumps when you flopped from your back to your tummy.  And now that you're sitting up?  You might as well be going to school for how big you seem to me.

It's just incredible to watch you express your little personality too.  You seem rather easily frustrated, but you're good at working on what you want - you've started reaching and pushing with your feet to get at the toys just out of your grasp.  You're learning so much so fast.  You've got a great sense of humor, too.  Sometimes I have to pause for a second to think whether you're laughing at the same thing I'm laughing at.

You've even made me a better person just by letting me be your mommy.  I have so much love in my heart for you sometimes I just can't imagine loving anything any more.  And then all you have to do is smile at me and I know that I have the capacity to love an endless, infinite amount.  I want our family to be caring and thoughtful and giving and loving, and I work on that every day for you.

These past six months have simultaneously been the most amazing and difficult and fun and frustrating and rewarding and hilarious and meaningful six months of my whole life.

Happy half-birthday, Lu-Bird.  Thanks for being my baby.  

Your Mama


Carrie said...

That's so sweet! You're such a good mommy to write nice things down to Lucy- she's going to love reading this someday.

Elizabeth said...

So sweet. And what a precious smile! She's a doll!

Lindsay said...

I think Lucy is pretty lucky to have you as a mother.

I also think Lucy will never ever need blush. :o)

KAO kid said...

This is great. I am pretty sure Lucy looks as though she is ready for you to send her to a Hollywood agent so she can start getting paid for that cuteness...and I am so glad you have come into motherhood so fully (and more and more every day!)

I am so proud of you as a friend, a sister, and a person!

Kate P said...

Oh my gosh, six months! Going to school? I practically have her married off to my youngest nephew! :)

(Also, is her teddy bear winking at us?)

Lindsay said...

cute kid!