I have nothing in my brain this morning. Nothing. I am finding it EXTREMELY difficult to concentrate on work (ie. I have done very, very little work today). And yet I wonder into the kitchen and can't quite make myself clean in there, so I lumber to the recliner and I don't really want to sit there, I don't really want to knit, I don't want to do anything. I want to go to bed and wake up when this baby is coming.
The frustrated restlessness isn't so much caused by the fact that I'm waiting and waiting (although I am...) it's more so the overwhelming sense of ambiguity and apathy for everything right now. I can't seem to get myself motivated to DO anything. Well, I go for walks, but only because I have told myself that it will help convince the baby to come.
There's not a whole lot to clean or do to prepare for Tad. My house is pretty durn clean with the little I-must-wipe-this! spurts I've been having the last week or so. My hospital bag gets packed in installments, my email addresses and phone numbers are all ready to go.
In baby news, I think she dropped. I can breathe and eat again and I feel like I have to learn to walk all over again because my hips are different somehow. I need help getting in and out of the car because I can't really bend forward - I kind of have to get my lower half out and then pray that my upper half can follow without too much trouble. Awkward.
Also, I'm HUGE. This week at church a lady leaned over to be at the blessing of the Eucharist and asked if I am due really soon or if I was having multiples. And then at the church picnic afterward one of the guys jokingly recruited me to be the anchor for their tug-of-war contest. Charming.
Also, I want to go out and find the owner of the car whose alarm keeps going off on the street in front of my house and kick him or her in the shins. It's not even one of those annoying new alarms that changes tone and whatnot. It's one of the honking horn alarms, and it's gone off three times since I've been writing this. This makes four times. Uh. I think I need to leave the house.
I'll go walk around Greenlake and hopefully that will change my attitude and motivation a little bit.