Even so, it's kinda hard to come up with other topics of conversation when my day is pretty much consumed with obsessing about the ins and outs of my "condition" and what to expect in childbirth because I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm a bit terrified...
I'm very interested in natural childbirth. Mostly because I've always hated taking medicine and doctors in general, and I have found that my body does a pretty good job of taking care of itself. My grandma always said that her doctor wanted a yacht, so all of a sudden she needed a radical mastectomy. Well, I'm not exactly on board with that conspiracy theory, but I'm not a poo-pooer. What I am not is a fan of the culture of fear our society has engendered around everything childbirth like women haven't been doing this since the beginning of women. The fear of pain, mostly. The fear that if you don't have monitors and peoples hands in your baby maker that you or the baby will die.
Now, don't get me wrong. I am not a home birth fundamentalist. The fluids. The chance that something might go wrong. No thank you. I'd rather have my baby in a hospital where everything's nice and clean and doctors are there in case something happens that isn't supposed to. But I don't want to be so afraid of the process that I do something that takes this experience out of my control.
It seems to me right now that everything I read or am taught about natural childbirth is the equal opposite to the medicated childbirth component. Naturalists propagate as much fear as anybody else. This fear is of putting ANYTHING medicine into your body. Narcotics that drug your infant, epidurals that can harm the baby, etc, etc. Be afraid of your doctors and anything they tell you! I'm not on board with that either. I mean, come on. I'm already changing my life more than it will ever be changed again - do you really want to add to that pressure by asking me to side with the left or with the right and not give me the chance to vote outside my party?
I was reading the Bradley method book before bed last night and I had horrible stress dreams about going into labor and my whole situation in the dream was: "what if I am not able to follow through with natural childbirth and I let everyone down?" To me, that was a HUGE fear, and one that I certainly don't need or appreciate. Especially when women have healthy babies all the time both with and without medication.
My qualm is this: Why does it seem that if I want to have a natural childbirth it is presented as "do it or fail"? I have no idea what labor and childbirth are going to be like. I might be able to handle it without medication. I might not. I don't want the pressure of having to buy into one religion that might not get me to heaven. Where's the Come-Informed-and-Make-Decisions-As-You-Go Party's propaganda? They need to get their platform out there. Because they've got my vote.